Why is it I’m always hurt when it comes to love? Am I cursed? What have I done? When will this end? I believed I’ve been good in my past relationships. Why is it that when I love, people wont love me in return nor love me the same love I showed to them? Is it really true that when "Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know but it can also hurt us more than we can ever believe. If we love someone we should be ready to experience not only happiness but heartache as well. That's the reward and risk that it takes. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved?" Damn, please not all the time. I need a break. All I need is a real LOVE, a love that makes me inspired, a no worry life. I want a special someone who I can call my own and be proud with confidence and security. God, is that person alive or unborn yet? Am I asking too much? Just want a REAL LOVE. And am I ugly? I don’t see my parents as ugly or my siblings. No one is ugly, beauty lies from within. I have qualities for sure people can admire. Sometimes it’s hard to find the right person. I always tell myself not to look for love but we all need love, I long for it. Love for parents and friends are different my dear readers. Sigh! Hope that person will come into my life as soon as possible. If you’re there please don’t make me wait. Maybe, the problem behind is me being old-fashioned. My close friends always told me to use my mind in love, but I am so stubborn making me hurt always in the end. Sex is just sex, come on! You can find sex anywhere and anytime, as what other people say, trust me. But sex with love? I don’t think so. So is it my fault to be old-fashioned? Should I stop being conservative to find my special someone? And be open-minded of what our world is having now? Help, anyone? But if I am really destined to be like this, well, God, I have to accept since You are the author of my life. Hence, I will never close my door whoever knocks upon it. God helps those who help themselves, right?

To those people who hurt me, FUCK YOU! You all don’t deserve my love. Anyway, I don’t want to hold grudges since its useless. It will only destruct my happy life. Past is past. Besides, I’ve learned a lot from you all and been part of my life. Thanks for the memories; for sure it will be keep, as I grow old. "In life, dont think about the pain we went thru, but the lesson it taught, not how much we cried and hurt , but how we SMILED and LOVED". Smile Wayne, smile!

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster

But in front of the person you like , you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.

In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.

Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The feeling of love starts from the eye
And the feeling of like starts from the ear.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like
All you need to do is cover your ears,
But if you try to close your eyes
Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people can be. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked. "Oh Yeah" said the son. "So what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

The son answered, "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends
to protect them."

With this the boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are."

Too many times we forget what we have and concentrate on what we don't have. What is one person's worthless object is another's prize possession. It is all based on one's perspective. Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for all the bounty we have, instead of worrying about wanting more. Take joy in all you have, especially your friends.